07 - Practical Application

Hi all! :) so I'm transgender, at least that's one of the better words we have to convey my beautiful, multidimensional, Source-expressive experience of self. I've resonated with other words like genderfluid, genderqueer, but the feminine energy is just where my true home is, I can't feel anything except that fundamental source of feminine energy when connecting to my true self. That is, aside from the All-That-Is/Source energy that's all genders and all beings and all levels of existence at once, which I also feel :)).

My challenge is with feeling safe outdoors. I experience paranoia/fear of something happening to me as I, for instance, walk from my car to the store, or sit out to meditate in a park. Being attacked, accosted, harassed, victimized.

And on the level of my authentic self expression, if I were to dress in the clothing I prefer (feminine clothing) while living daily life, despite the fact I have many examples in my life of friends and others who are doing exactly as I would like to do and living fine --- I experience a painful, primal fear that something bad is gonna happen if I actually live out this preference.

So, it's a general feeling of unsafety in public, city settings. A belief in unsafety. And this is just one extension of that idea. But it is a big one since I haven't come 'out' to everybody in my life, such as my family for instance (friends I mostly have).

Any advice or perspective from Elan Interactions or any of the other wonderful people here? Thanks!! 🫶 So grateful